When you love someone, but....

I think it's normal if a girl wants a prince to be her fiance. I think every girl in this world wants a charming prince, with handsome face, good manner, who lives for their girl. 

So do I.

I have someone in my life now but I think he's not for me. Yeah I know that it seems impossible to get a perfect prince like a story in fairy tale, but I know someone deserves to be mine. But, someone who fills my days with these anxious care never makes me safe and comfort. I just........never feel comfort when I'm with him. We have broken up but we try to built our relationship from the very start, without any status. At that time, I hoped that it would be more suitable for me, but actually...it isn't.

I don't know what i feel to him. Sometimes I get mad when I know he's flirting with another girl, but sometimes I dont want him to be there for me.

I know he loves me with all his life, but I realized that the longer he stays with me, the more he will be hurt. I know I've never love him well. I know I'm not a right girl for him. 

Maybe it caused by a story behind us. A story that never revealed. An untold story. I feel too afraid if he knows it. I feel too afraid to hurt his feeling. But  I realized that the longer I keep this, it will hurt his feeling.

I will tell him, reveal it, as soon as possible. Maybe this could be an proof, that I love him, maybe :)